Inside thoughts

Im filled with thoughts now, so much that I cant breathe or think properly.
What's the problem with me!! I really cant seem to spell it out in words, its so hard to even mention it.
Is there an angel who knows everything out of me or whom I can speak to?!
Why does it seem that I always have a close door in my heart.. People can do the same but not for me.
I would give up even before saying.. Can I change this of mine..

exhausted. 'm listening to songs now to ease myself.